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They’re Baaack …

… and we’re not talking about those evil entities from the Poltergeist series.

Dinosaurs.

“Clever girl,” Says Robert Muldoon to Steven Spielberg, returning and poking his head out from the foliage.

This time there is no Dennis Nedry to screw up the system, but a hybrid dinosaur. No, I’m not talking about Vincent D’Onofrio either; he is supposedly playing the supporting villain.

I’m not sure if Michael Crichton is spinning in his grave or what. However, it’s rather certain and difficult to pull a franchise out of a Tyrannosaurs-Rex-grave-sized hole. The novels are amazing, and they stand far above the movie compliments. This includes the more hokey, family-friendly third installment where the only decent thing about the film was the concept of evolution and dinosaurs becoming more intelligent.

[This is where the camera cuts to Jeff Goldblum signature laughing in an armchair.]

I don’t care how attractive Bryce Dallas Howard is — OK. I’ll pause, because that’s a lie. At least Chris Pratt is in tow. He’s showing his vitality and ability to act in comedy and action roles. Let’s see how he can fare in a dinosaur movie.

The two things that worry me are the use of CGI and the potential of it being too family-friendly. The original Jurassic Park kept everyone on the edge of their seats for a wonderful, thrilling joyride. This installment, however, could be different and in similar fashion to JP III. Claw marks and all.

But it’s too early to tell. But I’m excited about it.

Check out the trailer:

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Sleeping Soundly

And as this day draws to a close, a sound mind and body drags wearily to bed.

Full mind. Full belly. Guilt-free. Conscience reveling in wonder.

And there is nothing to be ashamed about.

A tired man’s words are an awake man’s thoughts … to some degree. Short, simple, honest.

There was a lot of local fervor tonight: passion, excitement.

Eight hours flew by quickly.

“All the world’s a stage,” as Shakespeare states in “As You Like It.”

Tomorrow’s another act, more scenes. Let’s see how it plays out.

 

 

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Breaking the Ice

A post about unemployment was started, but the kibosh was put on it. There was nothing interesting about writing about applying for jobs, a couple writing and a couple digital marketing jobs. After mapping out the words that are to follow, a good segue was made, but I’ll save that for a Kinani Blue post.

Last night, there was an attempt to call me out on being insincere and not truthful regarding my shyness. I’m told that “I’m not shy,” because I perform improv. I’m not shy,” because I talk to a lot of people. My longevity with jobs was complimented, saying that I’m dedicated even though I thoroughly didn’t like a certain position, and because of that I stuck it out and tried to do well.

But I don’t have a job, and I get anxious before interviews. I don’t have a girlfriend, because the timidness and awkwardness sweat out of me; and women do have teeth, and so they will bite. I don’t have my dream job, because there is some self esteem issues that get in the way. And since money is such an issue, it does hinder moving to a larger environment without a secure job.

And I stared at this person. I just stared. I wanted to chuckle, because she was confident that she had me pegged; she didn’t. She presumed me to be a certain type. I asked her why I was on an internet dating site. She couldn’t answer it, or maybe she didn’t answer it since it sounded rhetorical.

While I was grabbing a beer with this friendly face, who currently is simply an acquaintance on friendly terms, an OkCupid match walked into the room. She looked at me, pulling a double-take and recognizing me from the website. That was clearly obvious. But this was after I saw a girl I previously dated months ago. I shielded my face to protect my person from being seen; the angle I was at helped as well. Even though I wasn’t on a date, I didn’t want her to see me with another woman.

The brunette, although we dated briefly about a month and a half, was probably one of the prettiest I’ve dated. Amazing kisser; and there was such a breathtaking passion when our lips touched. Sometimes I’d have to pull away to catch my breath, but even having my hand on the side of her face during that pause was just as electrical.

She and I met at a bar, during a networking event. I saw her, and her beauty struck a chord. Our eyes locked, and I knew she wanted to talk to me as well. We did. Aside our differences, we got along well. Introducing her to everyone came without hesitation. Her questioning me about some female friends made me hesitate sometimes, referencing my last serious relationship, but it wasn’t a biggie. She was not like that girlfriend of mine; I don’t think anyone could be that domineering.

But I didn’t talk to her immediately. I actually crossed my fingers with hope that she’d sit down at our table. She made her way over and sat down. And that’s how it started.

I’m on OkCupid. (Yes, this is redundant information.) In the words of Tom Cruise/Jerry Maguire: “You had me at hello.” Although this marks the first and last time I will ever quote Tom Cruise, this is the ideal situation. We want that first connection to be a defining moment. It may not be the defining moment, but it has to be a defining moment that will resonate through the rest of the relationship. Aside from the person-to-person interaction, the online dating world does not allow this to happen.

Some messages say, “Hi.” Some messages take one aspect of my profile, and it’s expanded upon. Some messages don’t even begin with hello. Some messages are simply absurd. This leaves me wanting to make contact and connections less. For the first time, I responded to someone the other day after they only said hello with a wink emoticon (not emoji). I responded and asked how they were. Nothing as a reply back.

Are these profiles bots? Are they made up? I’ve seen the green dot indicators, letting everyone know they are online. This only makes online dating more uninviting and more unappealing. There is reluctance to make an effort. By I still try for some reason, but it’s feeble.

Why? Because the whole real-life confidence has grown because of it.

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Second Opinions

Last night, I ended up meeting up with a friend for a low-key evening. After a week of hustling around, sitting around for a low key evening was pretty necessary to experience. The following morning, today, was to be filled with improv from 10 AM to 3 PM, and the latter three hours were dedicated to a musical workshop through our Syracuse Improv Collective. She would later poke at me about not participating in the workshop, because I’m not one for singing.

However, she did call me out on bailing, because we definitely sang a few times in past improv classes. This workshop of musical improv is also not karaoke, which you all should know my fear of that by now; amateurish singing always does that to me. However, attending the class and watching for a little bit, this calmed my fear toward that type outing. I’m willing to give karaoke-related or infused events an acceptable “college try.” However, considering I belt out tunes when no one is watching kind of makes me a singing hypocrite.

I should have given the workshop a try.

But I digress. My travels took me to Skaneateles, which was decorated to nth degree for the December holiday season, not the November, like everywhere else. Alexis and my relationship truly defines the men-and-women-can-be-just-friends debate in positive favor. We have a great understanding of the friendship, and we have a blast. And it’s important for both of our future partners to realize and understand that this is a person that we are going to be friends with for a long time and no matter where we end up.

We’re both in our 30’s. We’re both creative minds. We’re both intelligent people, well-traveled and cultured. And we have learned a lot from each other; I definitely can say that I have learned a lot from her. And we love to vent to each other about the American Central New York Follies of Dating. We give each other insight into what each of our genders are saying, thinking, doing.

What she isn’t accustomed to is the concept of OkCupid, and the world of online dating, which I don’t quite fully understand, but I enlightened her and allowed her to peruse around on the app later in the night.

First, we dealt with the frustration of the hoity-toity blonde woman, who got snippy with us. She was sitting at an adjacent table we were eyeballing, but she kept her clutch and scarf on one of the stools of the other high top. We took the high top, considering it was the only table left in The Blue Goose. As we took our seats, Alexis had to take the seat with the woman’s stuff, because we wanted to face out toward the window and not the corner of two walls.

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This only makes sense, looking for a view and not a blank wall, right? Well, the woman gave us — well, mostly Alexis — the stink eye the rest of the evening. Sorry for disturbing your clutch’s evening, ma’am, but inanimate objects don’t get a seat of their own around here.

The OkCupid came up, and I essentially showed her what it was all about. We went through matches, and we checked out profiles. I took her through the “Quickmatch” option, where people can do a quick browse and scope out the pictures and brief summary of potentials in the area. The first picture that popped up caught my eye, and she quickly agreed; after checking out the summary she wrote, her picture was swiped to the “Like.” Unfortunately, it could not be found today; so much for messaging her.

And she took a browse through the questions section, learning more about me than she ever imagined. She got few good laughs in and several eye opening aspects about her friend. (Some things she did not expect.)

But Alexis and I spoke of true connections: the moments of looking someone in the eyes, the sensation of touching someone (not in an overly sexual way, but the actual hand grazing a face before a kiss and shoulder touching and hugging), the gratification or disgust of kissing another person. All of these adds up to a physical and emotional attraction that cannot be dismissed. We spoke of astrological signs — we believe in this — and our matches and mismatches. And we talked about how our daily habits and interests should play a role in sifting out the better matches from the less qualified.

We all have our roles, and this includes the masculine and feminine. Men and women employ each other’s qualities, and some embody the qualities more than others. It reflects who we are, who we are looking for, and what level of a playing field that we look for and expect and should pair up with. It’s quite more in depth than what this scribbling is about, but this is only to show the top of the mound of this monstrosity of love, something we can’t fully understand. At least we have each other’s backs … as friends.

We also couldn’t understand why our selfies last night were not coming out as good as they normally do.

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Horror Scope

So there isn’t much to report, but this lovely horoscope is scary on target. So, yes, I am a Pisces. This is a little more insight into my life, otherwise and especially present …

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Coffee Cups

See those coffee cups above?

Yeah. That explains this week, and it especially defines the last couple days:

Working. Driving around. Excessive coffee drinking. Not consuming the end of the coffee in cups. It’s an actual metaphor. There is such a thing as too much coffee. Trying to stay awake and dreaming and paying attention.

Hell, I wanted tea today, but I still I ordered coffee. I didn’t drag out my words to save my mistake. I didn’t say “cofffffffff-tea.”

Therefore, this explains this post at 11 PM — the posting time is simply emphasis.

I can’t wait to sleep. I can’t wait to dress up again tomorrow. These two statements: truths.

And if you want more to read, go here: Syr-a-cuse Neeeeew Tiiiiimes.

I’m tired.

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Try Honesty

So, my last post at Syracuse New TImes was taken with offence. It’s not a bad thing, but it’s not a good thing. I have a heart and a conscience, but at the same time the writing is necessary to be honest. Some of the things that come out on the page come out dickish, which is the eye of the reader. But chronicling and voicing my opinion about something, whatever it may be, is necessary. It’s what I want to aim for and be consistent with.

I wrote a review about a cafe last week, and someone accused me of being a friend to the owner. I’m not, but there was a desire to try it. It wasn’t the best food, but it definitely was not the worst. I respect everyone’s opinion, and I appreciate a well-constructed one than one blasting a venue. Riddling the comment with abrasiveness and cursing is also a turnoff. This comment was not, but there are some that slip through occasionally.

Cursing happens in my posts for emphasis, and because I like to curse (let’s be honest here). But the cursing does not dominate the content, because there is “too much swearing” — it’s ignorant sounding.

Writing is something to be continually worked on. It’s important to develop your voice. It’s important to try out new voices. None of this is new to anyone (who writes).

But when it comes to relationships, honesty is also key. With my writing, blogging: Non-fiction helps me keep my life an open book. Names will not be dropped in negative light, Also, at the beginning of relationships, especially in the world of online dating, it’s important to take your dates seriously and still keep an open mind about it. You’re talking to a none to a few other people, but you’re still keeping your eyes open for other possibilities. Just because a person is online dating, it does not mean they have to stick to the online world. The real world is forgotten about.

And I saw someone attractive on Saturday. I commented … well wrote about it. Her friend tried to set us up. My friends told me that I should have spoken to her. But I did not talk to her — cowardice and conscience to thank and blame. Also because the girl I went on a couple dates with (via OkCupid) is great. I mention this.

This is living the single life.

There is no need to further beat the dead horse. However, my writing is not going to be hindered or censored. I’d like to get recognized for my writing. I hope it takes me somewhere. Integrity is integrity. Passion is passion. It’s my job to pursue this, to see this talent — if is should be designated as one — through. Hearts will be broken. Minds will be infuriated. I lost 10 followers because I shit on NaNoWriMo.

And should I receive negative feedback: I’m doing something right.